Three times a (lack of) charm

I've reached day four and survived! I was warned that the first three days are the hardest, and a lot of people give up on day three. I'm here, swigging milkshake like it's no-one business and I'm gonna keep going. But, as I was warned, It was no stroll in the park. I had no energy and felt really low. The first day was sort of a novelty, and writing the blog and getting the feedback left me a bit giddy and kept me going, so thanks for your lovely words of encouragement! It's really helping. Even small things like my dad ringing and saying "Think of the clothes you can wear in Spring" gives me a real boost! It was strange waking up in the morning feeling so sluggish with no energy, knowing that your getting up to go down and make another milkshake instead of a dreamy, delicious, dripping-with-butter bagel. (Move on Rach, move on) I've been going to bed at 11pm exhausted, which for a night owl like my bad-self is strange.
Getting to day four I've realised that the reason I'm able to carry on, was having prepared for it for so long. I definitely know that this is something I couldn't have walked into. Each downer I reach, I was expecting so I can deal with it and move on, Dearbhail (my guru/friend/former lipotrim dieter) is brilliant as she knew what I was going to feel each stage so would txt me with motivation "You're going to be feeling really low right now, just keep going, only few more days and this will pass"

The 2nd day I decided to treat myself to a sassy new hand blender, using the whisk just left it a bit lumpy, and since I'm spending no money on food/alcohol, I thought I'd invest. I had to go to Peckham to get this, the trouble is my ex Mc Donalds and his friends KFC and Chinese all live there. I thought this would be really hard walking past them. But when I reached them, it was less "take me back" and more of a "I don't need you". In my head, this is how it was played out. Mc Donalds being Mr Big, and I being ever the lady Charlotte.

 Again, I feel this is because I've been really mentally prepared for this change. I really want this and know this is how to achieve it! I don't need it and I'm fine with that. I strolled on through to Argos to get my blender feeling smug....they were out of stock, so I went to Morrisons, £8-Bargain!

The main thing that I hated about the first few days, was my mood. As I said, I wasn't half as down as I should've been, due to support. But I'm someone who could chat the head off a 10p, I love chatting, I just do. But when I have a toothache or something thats bringing me down, I tend to just sit in my room to isolate myself. I hate to think that i'm bringing a mood down. With these milkshakes, it would get to 9pm and after a full day of being fine, I'd just get tired, cranky and a little tooshy! I felt like I was bringing a bad vibe so I just wanted to be on my own. Hopefully I'm past that, and if i'm not, i'll just have to get over it! As it's no way to carry on. The first few days I was having bad headaches and that but plenty and plenty of water gets you through.

Another thing I've noticed is people feel really bad eating/drinking/talking about food around me. This is really kind, but it's not fair on them. My mum was on the phone to me and started mentioning a fillet steak she got on offer (that woman loves a bargain!) then felt really guilty for mentioning it, she shouldn't! There is gonna be countless bargains over the next 12 weeks, and she will want to tell me, it's fine. The same is with my housemate cooking, I make my milkshake the same time she makes her dinner, for the activity, and she felt guilty, but I have to make milkshake my routine now. Although the third day for health and safety I didn't sit with her during dinner, just incase. But this diet has to become the norm, Laura will be having her textured plate of gorgeousness, and i'll be having my milkshake, but this is just for a few weeks. This isn't something I've been struck down with, it's something I chose to do, no one forced me, i know it's going to be soooo worth it. So I'm manning up, pass the water on the rocks, make it a large one!

It's a good thing the edit I'm working on at the moment I have to do from home, I used to hate this as I wanted to get out, but at the minute it's a blessing in disguise. If I had to go into an office, feeling so low, smelling beautiful lunches, I would've went Britney Spears (shave head, umbrella etc) on them. One thing I miss is to break the day up I'd usually go to Sainsbury's and have a nosey around, but I can't do that now. But I had an idea of going there as normal and buying nice coffee on day two, it got me out of the flat and gave me something to do. I saw all my old friends, crisps, choc, meat etc. They were all calling my name but I told them politely that I'd outgrown them. The first three days are behind me, it's not to say it's all gonna be plain sailing, but the juice is worth the squeeze!


Things to avoid on the first three days:
Adele
Ellie Goulding
Anything with emotion. You will cry!

Things that helped:
I.T crowd, lots of it!